I'm still here. Things are crazy lately but I'm not letting this thing die off just yet.

I start my new job Friday. I'll be doing Flash web design for a small company in Provo. They seem pretty excited about me starting to work there and I'm not sure if that's good or bad, but I get to start right away and I'm thinking I might even be slightly overqualified for the position. That would be weird. I'm usually physically ill for the first two or three months of a new job. Sick with worry, fear of inadequacy, all that good stuff. It would be weird to just show up and start working. Almost seems unsporting. :D

As for Dane so far he's taking some bar shifts down at ABG's. They're thinking about training him behind the bar as soon as he gets his food handler's permit. Then he might actually be able to make a little money. And yes we had the talk about the bar tab. haha. No, but we seriously did.

He's been great, though. The girls are loving having him home so much, and he's using his nervous energy toward housework. So things are still scary but it looks as though we might be able to weather it after all. Cross your fingers for us. :)

Sorry I haven't been keeping up. Dane quit his job and I've been sort of in panic mode. The computer has primarily been a functional job-hunting tool lately, but I'm still here and will be off and on for a long time. Things are just a little on the crazy side right now.

As for the work situation, it looks like Dane might start a new job as early as Monday. (Hope I didn't just jinx it.) He's trying to get on as a truck driver for a company that trains newbies and pays a little as soon as the second week. Could be really good and he's excited about the change. As horrifying as the whole thing's been I think we both knew he'd want to make the leap sooner or later. I was just hoping for a smoother transition. But yeah, not his style. :)

OK, so things are finally starting to settle down. Dane's job's been a real tornado lately and he's still pulling 15 hour shifts pretty much every night. But at least he's starting to have a bit of a sense of humor about things. He's starting to feel less like the world is crashing down on him and more like they're all in the same boat together. Crummy sinking scary boat but they're together or something like that. Actually he's starting to think more and more that this could end up being a good thing for him down the line -- like a promotion or something if he can hang on through the craziness.

As for me I've made a crushing discovery. With his new schedule change I've had to put the kids in for longer hours at the day care. It's the cheapest I've found anywhere but still I just figured out last night that after taxes, day care and overpriced gas still the norm, I'm only bringing home like fifty bucks a week. The only reason I even make that is that Dane still can stay home with the girls all Friday.

So now I'm faced with the dilemma of whether or not to quit. I love my job. It's fun and weird and I'd miss the people I work with so much. It's made the time I spend at home nicer and I think it's made me nicer, too. I just don't think I can justify the long hours of day care that are starting to really wear on the kids.

Well, for now we're all going to tough it out. I have to do some real thinking about this one. And right now even fifty bucks a week is SOMETHING... Once we get our taxes back, though, the pressure will be on. Poor me. :( ugh.